Have you ever

been so sad that your heart physically hurts? I just want to take mine out right now so I can stop hurting and just go to sleep.

2009

In 2009, I will do something extraordinary.
In 2009, my work ethic will inscrease.
In 2009, I will treat myself with respect.
Most of all in 2009, I will focus much more on what I have instead of what I had and be much less nostalgic (speaking of, nostalgia is such a beautiful word:"a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time").

Rawr.

I don't like it when my bubble is burst.

IT'S THE

EYE OF THE TIGER, IT'S THE THRILL OF THE FIGHT RISING UP TO THE CHALLENGE OF OUR RIVAAAAALS.

Rock Band... ROCKS. :) I love my sisters and today in general. I went to the mall and got cute stuffzzz. I love my best friend in the world, Stefanie Gardner, and my other best friend in the world Dillon Olmanson. :) Also Casey played Rock Band and Scategories with me and my sisters all night. I'm surprised they and my mom haven't creeped the hell out of him yet. ;)

I LOVE MY LIFE!!!

I hate

time. Really, I do. I realized that 2008 is a week away from ending, and that's so crazy for me to think about it. I get so overwhelmed when I realize 2008 will never happen again. Ever. Time goes by really quickly and everything changes too fast. Like last year on New Years Eve, I spent it with Jaslyn, Brandon, Alec, and Colton. Hell if I know where any of them are going to be this year. I'm getting closer and closer to full independence, and I know I'll be on my own before I know it. Every minute of your life only happens once, every day only happens once, every year only happens once. I don't know how to handle it all when I think of it like that. I just feel so overwhelmed. One time, when I was eight years old, my dad's best friend randomly turned to me and said, "You are one day closer to the day you die." Okay, first off, DON'T TELL THAT TO AN 8-YEAR-OLD. Second, it's true... yikes. I mean, I realize that. Obviously. I don't know, I'm just so weird and have a hard time handling myself when I start thinking like that.

Anyway, merry Christmas.

I'm so weird.

The happiest day on earth is in two days, and hopefully I will be getting my license within the next week. I better, judging by that's the only thing I asked for for Christmas and it doesn't even cost my parents money (directly).

In other news, The Beatles are magical.
In more other news, I'm really weird. I've just felt weird lately and I don't know why. Maybe it's because I've been reflecting too much on the past year. Maybe it's because i'm going through BFF withdrawls (majorly). Or maybe it's just becuase there's no school and I don't know what to do with myself.

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Happy birthday.